entry kali ni berbeza sket..we are taking things slow..emmm...y??cz i dun feel right..
seseorg penah berkata yg hidup ni wont be easy..n it sure is true..life ain't easy..there will always be a struggle in life no matter how much u try to dodge it..like a game of dodge ball back in kindergarten..u may dodge d ball once, twice or even be d last person survived in d game, but it will hitu in d end..no matter what...same goes with life..problems, hardships, whatever it is that u think suck, will eventually hit u right on the face..SMACKKK!!!!
getting through the hardship won't be easy as well...not as easy as reciting ABC's, counting up 123, or riding a tricycle..u can learn how to be rich in 30 days, how to be skinny in a week and even how to lose a guy in 10 days..heee..but no one can ever teach you how to overcome love sick, heartbreak, friends turning into enemies or how to just be happy apart from yourselves..it is something that u have to experience for yourselves before learning how to avoid it or make it better in the future...and sometimes the education might not be as pleasant as it looks..people all around u can say that they understands but the thing is they actually don't..ever heard of the expression 'berat mata memandang, berat lg bahu yg memikul..'??
lets face it..we all need someone in our lives..not bf or gf, parents or families, but someone we look up to when we face that problems..we need that words saying that 'it will all gonna be ok' even if it is not going to be but the words of comforts seems to soothe us..yeah...and sometimes we do need that particular people to say 'just forget him..he is a total loser' or even a simple 'u worth more than that' but it doesn't mean that we want that person to back us up..we just want some sort of understanding from that person because he/she is the one that we go first when we have problems..meaning that we trust that person so much, we look up to that person in hopes that the person have it in his/her heart to help us..either in forms of comforting hugs, words of assurance or a physical help..one small thing would just do because it shows that they care for us..and it is an extreme important to feel that there will always be someone there for u when u r feeling down..it means that u r now alone..how hard can that be..??right..??WRONG!!!
what happens when u think u know who the person that gonna bring u up when u r down turns out to be someone who is not..??HEARTCRUSHING ain't it..??yeah..trust me..it does..worst than heartbreak..emmm..there's no word to appropriately describe it..im speechless..i really am..
i just don't understand why it is so hard to justify someone's action..??is it wrong to come running to someone with tears bursting out form our eyes with hopes that he/she can save our souls..??is it wrong to putting in so much trust and hopes to him/her when u know that he/she is going to knock u down even harder and deeper and in the end saying that he/she have no possible reason to help u..??maybe im naive and stupid at the same time but...ehmmm...i always thought that in every person there must at least a small bone of kindness istalled by ALLAH..i guess it differ in size in each person towards different person..
trusting someone is hardwork..giving him/her the chance to be in ur life is noble..put up reasons when what we hope for never happens is pathetic..and when it is done, its DONE..enough is enough..i never understand how one person can separate love to boys' department and girls' department when u already vowed to love equally??i never understand how u can pick on which person to help most when u already vowed to help and ptotect equally??well...maybe im just a big dufus then..too thick,too idiotic to understand..
so what do we do now..??
we wait and wait..hoping for the right person to come knocking on our door of life, stepping into our hallways of heart and lending a helping hand..we stumble upon few misleading people, feeble upon misunderstanding but our hopes never seems to fade away..and in our hopes, we find new light shining the way..WE HOPE...
p/s: this is based on a true story..btw..da mcm article dlm mjlh cleo la pulak entry kali ni..but i hope this entry goes into all of ur hearts and maybe u can make a change to someone else who really needs u..dun wait until that person have had enough of u and walks away from ur life forever..u might not want that..PEACE..
